the 223rd day of the 15th year of my life

argh. feel so crapp today. since this is my blog, i shall say what i wanna.
won assumption 5-3, played a full game. disappointed at letting in 3 goals.
why is fook chai even the vice-capt? he up to it meh?
i don't see even a trace of leadership in him. did he prove his leadership just now?
well YES! don't go into position, wanna score goals so can talk big.
useless piece of crap. so suay you in the team. CRYBABY. small thing also cry.
LEADER? don't INSULT the term ok. let me name what he did.
1) offside for more than 7 times
2)out of position for more than 5 times in less than half an hour?
3)blamed the defense for mistakes, he didn't make the same mistake?
4)fight with opponent then kena pushed.
5)talk about what they so small, lousy, score this score that. where?
fine. enough. mr bernerd might call me up for questioning.
i seriously question Dunman sec. look at the leaders
what vice president of council. so effeminate. shuns responsibility.
doesn't have the courage to stand up in front of others
how to lead? talk about "leadership". don't insult that word
some councillor. join "a female dominated sport" (edited 190107 1836hrs). another effeminate one. student leader?
lead what? the drop-hand revolution?
Dunman should be producing top notch leaders.
why weren't we invited to the Hwa Chong leaders' conference?
reasons so obvious.
what's Dunman coming to? these kind of student leaders. so many more.
where have all the REAL leaders gone to?
the ones who will follow instructions but not word for word.
improvise. the ones who dare to do something different.
where? the ones who say something and do it.
i forgot what the council presidents had said to do during campaigning.
why? they never carried it out.
can more right-brainer leaders be spotted?
as far as i know, they won't. why? they're said to be "disobedient"
they just don't behave like teachers' pets.
anyone not happy with my entry, you're welcome to comment


fine. enough of that.

"have you ever loved and lost somebody?"
well to the one, i find it hard to tell you....

the 221st day of the 15th year of my life

Whoa.school started.argh.so many things happened.....
how i wish i could pour my heartfelt feelings out here,but i can't cause it's public.
waiting in the darkness for just the vibration of either of my 2 phones
but expectedly,they never came.
=((
&yes, it's hard to trust
but the funny thing is that we're both christians.
why are things in this state?
maybe it's God's way of making me more sensitive to those around me
maybe it's just that our characters clash
opposites repel more than attract right?


awwwwwwwwwww.i have crap teachers for the year that matters the most
for e maths,i keep worrying if she'll teach wrongly.
for lit, i doubt the teacher can really help.
oh my. i know i've really gotta rely on God to get me thru O's
i got like erm............so much to do in so little time.


argh.my distribution is crap.
i just realised that i need more practise on my distribution rather than my handling.
just work on m one-on-ones and reading of the game.
but most importantly, rely on God.
k i'm feeling tired...........
that's it for today.

the 211st day of the 15th year of my life

"Don't wanna think about you"

Can you leave me here alone
I don't wanna hear you say
That you know me
That i should be
Always doing what you say

Cause I'M TRYING TO GET THRU TODAY
And there's one thing i know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
I don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
Cause i know
I don't wanna think about you

Don't wanna think about you

When i wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cause i won't wait
Cause you won't change
And you'll always be this way

Now i'm gonna get thru today
And there's one thing i know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time i won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time i know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away
Run away
Running as fast as i can
Run away
Run away
I'll never come back again
Run away
Run away

Don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
Don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna talk this one out

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out (figure this out)
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time i won't let you bring me down (bring me down)
Won't let you shut me out (shut me out)
This time i know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you
Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you
Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHAT'S WRONG WITH TODAY?!?!!?
first get accused of something i didn't do in class
then fall down in the parade ground
then played less than 30mins of the St Pats match
out injured. lost 5-2
come home. tolerate shit from my brother
don't know what the hell is his bloody problem
what the hell can i do? no one understands what i'm in
i am no longer an older brother in his damned blind eyes
let him go with his friends. he is answerable to God. not me
fine. take it that i asked the wrong question.
i always do things at the wrong time.
and you. do you know what it is like to be me?
you try having him as your brother.
with your mindset, you'd given up long ago
fine everything's my fault. i give up. it ain't me, but i really give up.
shit everything.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

the 208th day of the 15th year of my life

we started as friends
but something happened inside of me
now i'm reading into everything
i've made it obvious
done everything to sing it
i've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong
i'm not so good with words
and since you never notice
let me tell you what makes a man
wanna give you all his heart
smile when you're around
cry when you're apart
if you know what makes a man
wanna love you the way i do
girl you gotta let me know

cause when i look at my life
how the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme without you
when i see how my path
seems to end up before your face

so if i let you go
i would never know
what my life would be holding you close to me
will i ever see you smiling back at me
how will i know if i let you go?

fear of rejection kept my love inside
but time is running out
so damn my foolish pride

i don't care if you think i'm crazy
it doesn't matter if it turns out bad
i've got no fear of losing you
you can't lose what you never had

now i'm gonna confess
that i love you
i've been keeping it inside
feeling i could die
but if you turn away
baby it's ok
at least we had a moment
before we said goodbye




if anyone could notice, they're all song lyrics!
haha. 2nd day of the new year 2007
SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
sec4 liao, but not ready to prepare for O levels!
hope "joss bush" comes and cancel all testings. haha
my hair is still long, my calf still as hard as rock, my hip still hurting
how can i go back to school and train???
and training's 3 times a week! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
oh man. tang is our english and lit teacher!
if this isn't bad enough, sundal is our e maths teacher!!!!
well...........that's life. God will see us thru.
i wanna be a child psychologist!!!!!!if it's His will......
i feel the need to help others out there.
i feel the need to help the children who have problems yet do not have God to depend on.
i know it's not the normal me, but i told you. i'm changing.
ok. i guess i should go prepare for school. it might be quite some time till i update.



i think i'm addicted to you.......