screwed up

i screwed up big time.

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i need you...
i'm just a failure

the 44th day of the 16th year of my life

joseph is stressed.that's the bottomline.argh
too lazy to blog.no time rather.
if somehow that retard who threw ice at us on friday is reading,
next time, face us. don't hide. turtle.

the 38th day of the 16th year of my life

God is great! despite some setbacks, He hath restored me.
He even let me think of this variation of a simple but important song:

whisper a prayer when you're weary
whisper a prayer when you're sad
whisper a prayer when you're happy
for He hears and answers prayers.

God answers prayer when we're weary
God answers prayer when we're sad
God answers prayer when we're happy
cause He hears and answers prayers.

Jesus may come when we're weary
Jesus may come when we're sad
Jesus may come when we're happy
so keep your heart in tune...

wonderful is our God.just when i thought i would be gracious if He took back something He gave, He proved me wrong! He did this by removing the close friendship i had with my friend.

i still value our friendship...i want it to be restored...

the Lamentations of Joseph...

18The LORD is righteous; for I have rebelled against his commandment: hear, I pray you, all people, and behold my sorrow: my virgins and my young men are gone into captivity.
21They have heard that I sigh: there is none to comfort me: all mine enemies have heard of my trouble; they are glad that thou hast done it: thou wilt bring the day that thou hast called, and they shall be like unto me.
8Also when I cry and shout, he shutteth out my prayer.
22It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.
23They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.
24The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.
1Remember, O LORD, what is come upon us: consider, and behold our reproach.
21Turn thou us unto thee, O LORD, and we shall be turned; renew our days as of old.


why does it seem to happen?first her now you.what exactly is wrong with me?




Whisper a prayer in the morning,
whisper a prayer at noon.
Whisper a prayer in the evening;
to keep your heart in tune

Whisper a prayer when you're weary,
whisper a prayer when you're sad.
Whisper a prayer when you're happy;
for He hears and answers prayer

&i'm not gonna hate you.i can't bear to..

the 33rd day of the 16th year of my life

ARGH. ARGH!!!!
shitty day today! argh!
started like any other day.but the turn of events were so... argh!
first thing i saw something i shouldn't.lost any mood to do anything.
this resulted in me taking jonny's tie and go whip ckz. then got both of us into trouble.
sorry ckz. my fault. argh!

the videos....

the 32nd day of the 16th year of my life

another day...yet another day...
argh. feeling so shitty. aching all over.
then just now, while playing blind mice =X , i got a BIG cut on my chest.
T.T so pain.......
it looks like this:

ouch! lol
oh yahh. i don't believe i actually played blind mice. i'm like 16?! hahaha
young at heart eh? lolol.
then after that went to play "soccer"
at the badminton court or as they call it.
lol when i teamed up with DT, against T.T jonny and pupus LOL,
my team whacked them. haha i ole-ed T.T more than 5 times? if only keely was there........ xP
then i ole-ed jonny like 3 times and scored? haha.
wahlao. jonny and T.T hor. make people laugh. coupled with rus, it's DISASTER! i shall upload the sherades' videos sooooooooooon. hahahaha.

MJ trial on sat. i need to be in top condition and in good shape. i feel fat. =/

the 30th day of the 16th year of my life

another Sabbath. another day you didn't come to church....
hais. i'm still praying for you....
i believe you've read the booklet and book and the letter.
why do you seem unmoved? hmmmm

argh. screwed my o level chinese oral,, but not as bad as T.T
screwed my prelim english oral cause i didn't know what to say. argh!

MJ trial this wed. i feel so down. as in my physical state is like.... SHIT?
GOD help!!

ok back to my studies.... 6th august is the start of my prelims. die! so little time!

transformers was nice. even though the storyline was like er. average?
the graphics was nice, and the feeling after watching, good. lol.


zzzzzz STUDY JOSEPH STUDY!

the 26th day of the 16th year of my life

in the hot and stuffy room....
i watched in silence, as my friends left me one by one....
they bade me farewell, and went their separate way......
i sat there reminiscing the past, contemplating the future...
soon after, i was all alone....





a piercing voice penetrated the deafening silence...
"joseph, come out..."
i knew this was it.... i was prepared for the worst....






















i sat down on the chair. DIE AH! CHINESE ORAL SO DIFFICULT!
and it sucks being the last. i had to suffer for so long..
then later have to help the examiners bring their cups of coffee down to the office.
lol i think i screwed it up big time, but i'll leave everything to God. only HE holds the future.
i'm so bored now; i'm in a dilemma.
should i play? or revise for my physics test?
or should i do my e maths? or or or...........
lol. today 1st lesson under ms ting tong. lol. she's MUCH BETTER than mrs fong.
lol. ok. i think i've "lol"-ed enough. tomorrow still have english prelim oral. argh!

the 24th day of the 16th year of my life

yesterday had a match agains Mt Carmel BP. lost 3-2 despite being 2-0 up.
i opened the scoring after a scramble in the penalty box. did my kaka celebration xP
lol. that goal's for you .....
then daniel added another soon after. john got hospitalised. pray he's ok...
he changed his flight back just to play this match, and he so kindly booked the field.
but he played less than 10 minutes..
whoa. i just realised i can't play as a keeper anymore, only can coach.
lost my awareness...

ok. back to e maths. later sundal make noise.....