the 211st day of the 15th year of my life

"Don't wanna think about you"

Can you leave me here alone
I don't wanna hear you say
That you know me
That i should be
Always doing what you say

Cause I'M TRYING TO GET THRU TODAY
And there's one thing i know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
I don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
Cause i know
I don't wanna think about you

Don't wanna think about you

When i wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cause i won't wait
Cause you won't change
And you'll always be this way

Now i'm gonna get thru today
And there's one thing i know

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time i won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time i know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away
Run away
Running as fast as i can
Run away
Run away
I'll never come back again
Run away
Run away

Don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
Don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna talk this one out

I don't wanna think about you
Think about me
Don't wanna figure this out (figure this out)
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time i won't let you bring me down (bring me down)
Won't let you shut me out (shut me out)
This time i know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you
Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you
Run away
Run away
I don't wanna think about you


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHAT'S WRONG WITH TODAY?!?!!?
first get accused of something i didn't do in class
then fall down in the parade ground
then played less than 30mins of the St Pats match
out injured. lost 5-2
come home. tolerate shit from my brother
don't know what the hell is his bloody problem
what the hell can i do? no one understands what i'm in
i am no longer an older brother in his damned blind eyes
let him go with his friends. he is answerable to God. not me
fine. take it that i asked the wrong question.
i always do things at the wrong time.
and you. do you know what it is like to be me?
you try having him as your brother.
with your mindset, you'd given up long ago
fine everything's my fault. i give up. it ain't me, but i really give up.
shit everything.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH